Society, what have you done?

My grades need to be higher. My weight needs to be lower. My stomach needs to be flatter. My wallet needs to be fatter. My skin needs to be tanner. My teeth need to be whiter. My heart needs to be stronger. My friends need to be uglier. My face needs to be prettier. My hair needs to be longer. My skirt needs to be shorter. My body needs to be hotter. My image needs to be cooler. My boobs need to be bigger. My waist needs to be smaller. Damn, society really knows how to make you feel like a piece of shit.

Lovely advice,

I love Tumblr yay xoxo

Health:

Drink plenty of water.
Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
Play more games.
Read more books than you did in 2010.
Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
Sleep for 7 hours.
Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
Dream more while you are awake.
Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
Smile and laugh more.
You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

Call your family often.
Each day give something good to others.
Forgive everyone for everything.
Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
Try to make at least three people smile each day.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

Do the right thing!
Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
The best is yet to come.
Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Sometimes when I get upset, something inside of me shuts down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I don’t because I’m turned off. I go silent and don’t talk very much, just looking at people. Thinking so much that I could drive myself crazy. It’s the kind of upset that confuses me and makes me want to curl up and sleep it off. I stay fixed like this until the hurt runs away. Sometimes it feels like it’s never going to go.

Pragmatic world,

This society sucks. Because no one would give a fuck to the 'ugly', 'unpopular' and 'dumb' girls. Some girls are born pretty, nice, smart, hardworking and popular. Well me? Hah well, I'm just me.

My heart beats for you,

Bubble pop,

Hello people I love you. It's been a few days or maybe a week or two since I've posted something nice teeheeeeee sorry had really been busy with choir, school, etc. ): BUT I'M BAAAAAAAACK~

These few days were amazing for me. Everyday, every time spent with you was a fairytale for me. We've been spending so much time together each day and I loved it. Like looooooooooooooved it. I've never find myself smiling when I wake up every morning, knowing I get to see you, touch you, just spend time with you - even if it's just a short hour etc. I LOVE YOU.

The first kiss, cuddles, wrestles, movie moments, slacking moments, laughing moments, staring moments, twitter/facebook/phone moments, dates, phone calls, endless text messages, nostalgic moments, wide-smiles-that-our-eyes-start-becoming-one-thin-line moments, etc. I thank you for them, and I know there will still be more to come in the YEARS to come ♥.

Alrightie let's go back to school. Yay it's been horrible. I don't understand a single shyt the teacher is saying and the pile of homework just keeps piling up every day I feel like it's gonna all topple down on me like some tower or something. I broke down alone because I never wanted anyone to worry about me. I'll always breathe a 'I'm fine' no matter how not-fine I am. But I say that, not because it's true or because that's what everyone in the world is saying because they're emo or just purely getting attention from everyone. No, I say it because maybe if I say it more oftentimes, I can actually really be fine. And I believe I will. I must. And I will. So yeah here ya go, a smile. :)

I shall start having a hiatus on my blog now until I can finally kick back and relax a lil' while. SO toodles, till we meet again. And until then, miss me when I'm gone if not I'll be sad. HAHAHAHAH BYE, XO.

LOVE,

Just one text. A simple text. Hi. Two letters, such a simple meaning. But then that one text, leads to another text. Pretty soon, nightly phone calls are a necessary habit. Phone calls die out, and you're meeting up at the local frozen yogurt or smoothie place, hanging out. Hang out after hang out, a kiss appears. Kissing leads to hand holding, and soon your relationship status changes to taken. Year after year, "I like you" is changed to "I love you". And then that one day will come, that one date that will change your life forever. The one date, where, the "I love you" changes to "I do.." A two letter text, changed to a two word phrase. A text, that changed someones life forever.

Stereo hearts,

Hi guys, it's been few weeks since I've posted something decent on this soon-to-be-dead bloggie yup?

This June holidays hadn't been productive AT ALL. Well unless you count reading a storybook (The Last Letter From Your Love by Jojo Moyes - an awesome and romantic read btw). But I can't deny that this was like the sweetest June holiday I've ever experienced - late night conversations, first date, cuddles, midnight phone calls. Yup it's been wonderful and I have no regrets. :)

While everyone's dreading tomorrow, I'm actually quite excited. I can finally get to see your face, and my friends. Besides, I wanna try our new time-table that everyone hates. I guess it's just that no one adapts changes that quickly. C'mon, when we first stepped into NCHS, everyone says they hated it but hey, aren't we okay now? Takes time. Who knows, the new time-table might even be better than the previous one?

Lalalalalalalalala I find my friends and I are awesome because we can complete projects at the very last minute, all within a few days, with a touch of team work and perseverance yeah baby! Hehehe I wanna go back to school and fool around with them again! -big smile-

You guys HAVE to listen "Stereo Hearts" by Gym Class Heroes and Adam Levine from Maroon 5 & "Someone Like You" by The Summer Set!! I looooooooooooooove Maroon five and The script like man their music are ftw. Go listen to them go go go!

Shall end off this short update-post now, ttfn ! Shall blog when I have that adrenaline rush within me again okie dokie? Oh who am I kidd'n, no one reads this. ):

Bye, XOXO

BIRTHDAYS

JANUARY=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.


FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!! Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt!and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. Likes to keep they're crushes kinda secret. Pretty much flawless.

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains.

MAY=LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex and making love, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

JUNE=FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hot. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

JULY=GANGSTA
You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!!

AUGUST=ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

NOVEMBER=SWEETIE
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Loves freedom. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

Only child,

Hi there, I'm here to blog. Trying to blog away my misfortune and fury. I hate my sister. From my basic knowledge, a sister wouldn't want to ruin her sibling's life. Oh you have no fucking idea how much I hate my life for having a fucking sister like mine. She sucks fucking big time. Sorry, if you can't fucking stand my vulgarities here but she's a knnccb. I can't believe I'm actually using such abrupt and coarse vulgarities but hey I can't help it, I can't stop it from flowing because every girl, every PERSON, every HUMAN BEING has his/her limit. When someone fucking went too far, hoho hello the nasty-me. I hate showing this nasty side of me because it's unlike me. I hate it.

This is not the fucking first time my sister tried to ruin my life. But this time, it's gone too far. This 'sister' should deserve some fucking treatment. Something. I'll let God decide on that punishment. She deserve it. I hope she fucking disappear out of my life for good. Let me the only child for god's sake.

I hate your bitchiness, huge ridiculous ego, kiddy no-brain behaviour and mindset, selfish attitude, blackmails, everything about her.

Anyone wants her? You can kindly take her. She's a fucking weirdo bitch. Tyvm I'm done here. I must save myself and save my precious blackberry. Kthxbye.

Btw, thank you to my lovely friends (Soozhen, kelly, xinyi, munnie) and you dearosh. Hearts a million, xxx.

Happy 14th birthday!

Happy birthday to the love of my life. Ass. ♡

Love me too,

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”

- William Shakespeare

27th baby,

Hi people I'm blogging now @ 11:45PM because I feel like it. And, because it's HyunAh's birthday today (wheeee #wildhorseday), and I had the time of my life earlier today and that I'm flying off tomorrow and will be back on Tuesday night, miss me.

Happy 27th my dear xoxo P;

June,

June, please be great.

Battle Cry,

Hi guys, back on comp again. Guess what, it's the first day of the HOLIDAYS baby!

But I'm not feelin' anything, not yet perhaps? But seriously, I don't find holidays any wow now. Results, hah, all went down and mommy's really disappointed. I've never gotten such a long and irritating silent treatment from her since like forever. It's been two days and she'd been nagging and nagging oh my god okay I get it, shut up for now.

And guess what, my holidays are all cramped. With choir practices, tuitions, school trips and camps. Wowwow. I am feeling really really mother fucking stressed up already. With all the PEER pressure and MOTHER-FATHER pressure. Study study study, like dude, it's the holidays. Chill a lil' bit for once can?

Leaving SG with the sec 2 cohort to Malacca this Monday. 2D1N yay! And woohooo I'm the only one cheering because of the short time there! Why? Because you're not going. ): Everyone has their baby/crush/boy-of-their-dreams by their side and I'm just sitting there like... yup okay. Will miss you tons. But would you?

Have been on Tumblr since forever. I miss it, even though I've left it only for like 10 minutes hahahahahahahahahhahahaah.

Oh, I am really honored to have wonderful pretty girlfriends. But it sucks just being with them sometimes because I feel really stupid with them. Not in the bad way. Just that, they're all so skinny and beautiful but I'm just there standing like a fat ass, so fugly. Hah fuck my ugliness + fatness. I need to be thinner.

Time check; 11:55pm. Still waiting for your text, like what you've promised/said. I guess no expectations = no disappointments again huh. Oh weeeeeeell I shall have faith, again!

Really disappointed that we can't go out on a movie date tomorrow. Fuck I feel shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag ~

Bye bye miss me.