Dreams,

Hi guys, I have this really down feeling inside me but I just can't seem to say it out, to anyone. - sings 2ne1~ HAHA- It's just personal and it's like I can't find anyone to talk to or anyone who could actually relate to it. Because seriously, I gave up hope. Where has all my 'have faith restart' gone to huh. Pathetic.

Yesterday was boxing day (yeah I just knew it on 27/12 12AM). It's the day when people start opening their X'mas prezzies - hopefully under their big Christmas tree I hope! - But sadly, I hadn't had any presents at all. It's alright, I don't need presents I need you. I spent the entire morning-afternoon-late afternoon with my whole family, packing. Boxes after boxes. Wrappings after wrappings. Whooooo. And each of us had a large KOI, to keep us moving on. (Y)

At around 4.30pm we stopped work since we started right after our lunch @home at twelve. And well for my dad, since he woke up at nine plus and had his breakfast/brunch earlier, he started at ten or eleven. So yeah we all (except my sissy) took turns to bathe. OMG feels so fuckin great having a cleeeeeeeeeeeeeean body again x) At least not sweaty and stinky. Bleah HEH.

Mommy and daddy dropped my sister and I at 313 before they leave for RWS. Why 313? Cuz I've got TWO Yami yogurt Christmas goodie bags! See that's whatchu get when you're loyal bwahahahahaha! But before we actually go down for them, f21, down for our light snacks/dinner. I HAD SUSHIIIIIIIIIII. walked around searching for our shorts. (Y) HAHAHA.

K, hopeless, trained to Orchard for FEP. And goddamn I saw GGeorgia with her family there and I was like fucking shocked to see her there. Man, a genius near FEP ?!? :D I called her out and we waved (: So yeap we continued on our way to FEP. Reached, met my sissy's friends working blaaah, ShortsHunt. And during our hour-long ShortsHunt, my sister bought two tops. Grats ); HAHAHAAAAAAAA, back to 313.

Went straight down to YAMI. Fuckshyt they sold out and they expect us to go back tomorrow morning. (N)(N)(N) ); But yeah, blaaaaaaaaaaaaah super disappointed. And then we trained down to Novena, velocity for our C.O. shorts wheeeeeeeeeeee! Then yeah others can't rmb. But all I did was that I was fucking sleepy and tired that I pok-ed to sleep at 12.06AM sharp hahaah. Woke up at 7.08AM today.

School > Choir > PT > First time leading for the jog! WHEEEEE > "The Wind" > Hungry > Down to Alumni room (for councillor sec 1 orientation camp briefing) > Fucking wasted our 1/2 hour doing nothing there > Finally up to the hall > Fucking got scolded by ex-Cos (I mean c'mon I did listen okay! Some of us did!) > 2.30pm FINALLY got released from them. Alright later on, everything was LONEly. );

Walked to Compass ALONE > Subway ALONE at first then Sheryln Angela Jolene 1A-girl came along haha coincedence > Mr.bean watermelon soya milk ALONE > 163 LONG ride home ALONE > Phoned 313 YAMI to confirm there ARE goodie bags left > One left, better than nothing, reserved hehehehehe > 269 to amk hub ALONE > Trained to Novena ALONE > Waited at the gates ALONE. Phoned sister.

Tapped out > Met up w sister > Down again to Somerset > Get their one last goodie bag > Walked around with sissy > $1 cone ice-cream (from SuperHotDog) was yummy and TALL > SUSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII > Slack > BYEBYE to sister > Trained home ALONE > HAHAHA I SAW ANGTENGDA in his HotTomato uniform there giving out flyers! Haha we were laughing and laughing! > Trained and Bus home ALONE > Spent the night at home ALONE > Down :\

All I want is someone who's afraid of losing me. But I guess that's hard because no one cared. )';