The Sun Creepin' Out,

Today's the last day of the holidays. Hmm and now that I'm recalling what I had done this entire holiday - slack. FUCKMYLIFE. Why can't I be like the other chics that can be so focused and motivated to mug that hard la srsly. I feel that my life is totally different from them.

Whenever I read yall's blog, one common word that was used perpetually "mug". And yesh each time I see that word, I freeze. My brain totally freezes because my heart tells me that I don't know how to "mug". I don't know how. You guys have been telling me and the others that yall are "mugging" and/or wants to "mug". How on earth do yall "mug" ?!?

I srsly don't know how. That's why I am always so afraid. I'm afraid I will not do well. I'm afraid I will disappoint my parents and teachers. I'm afraid to lose to you smart people. I'm afraid.

I really do want to start studying hard as much as you guys, or even more. But I just do not know how! HOW TELL ME HOW. I think I'm dying here. I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED ANY OF MY REVISIONS WHEN YOU GUYS HAVE ALR STARTED MILLION YEARS AGO. FUCKMYLIFE.

And please do not say I'm already a smartass, and do not have to study. Fuck what you said. Because I dare to say I'm not. And I'm not saying "I'm not" just to anger y'all or deny as what most of you think. Why on earth would I deny when I have nothing to deny. I'm not smart srsly. I GO BY LUCK. LUCK OKAY LUCK. NOT BRAIN CELLS. Fuushtard, I srsly abhore people saying that I'm smart or Those that don't have to study but get good grades wan.

Srsly, people who are smart or those that don't have to study but still get good grades wan are people like G. She's really called the genius georgia okay. My grades aren't good either, so shut up. People have much better results than me okay fyi. Grrr

I'm gone. I'm dying. Bye.

\ At least there's someone who understands how I feel now - Val. Gosh, I just cannot concentrate -,-