Romeo Save Me,

Bam Crash it's Tuesday 100810 today wow. Today, things weren't working well at all for me. I feel hopelessly pathetic. And for once, I think there will be wet pillows again Jaslyn.

I woke up at 8am caus eof my watch alarm. Bam I never felt so tired and not wanting to get up in the morning like that before. Never, in my life. I was practically conked out y'know. I slacked on bed for another 10minutes and my mother appeared at my door haha.

Sorry dad, I wasn't trying to be rude or purposely declining your awesome offer to drive me to school. I just feel that you don't have to do that for me. Just concentrate on your work :) Don't be too exhausted cause your health comes first okay. I love you daddy!

Reached school, boredddddddddddd. Like I'm dead or something. And yay Cheryl finally realises how awesome Taeyang (L) is haha. But kinda late and ... awkward. Idk.

And things worsen and all, after seeingyou guys like that. Whatever la. But thanks to those who cared or bothered to make a move. I texted you, you thought I was her, because of the writing style. Okay, I admit, she's really awesome ok. She's chio, she's cute, she's smart, she's hardworking, she's nice, and all things great. That's why I'm envious of her. I feel I'm not good enough for her.

HY class test, wtf failed, as expected. 14/30 yay right -,- MA, cancelled; like whatthefuck AGAIN. Went up com lab w group members for IT project. Can't you tell I'm depressed? Can't you tell? I feel there is a distance growing between us. I feel T and L are closer to you rather than me. I feel no one gives a damn about me. I bet you find me fucking annoying, weak, and immatured to 'cry over spilled milk'. If you know me well, you'd know I'm an emotional and sensitive girl, and that I abolutely hate crying.

Fuck la, my mother wants me to walk down to the market and buy my own lunch back. Wtf I cried all day inside and you want me to do that. Obviously you didn't see the plight I was in then; I kept it well. I want to be strong. God, please give me the strength to have a cheerful life.

Your smses are killing me. But I want to thank people who cared for me and made the effort to try to make me smile and cheer up. Thank you very much. Now I know who really cared.

I haven't complete my homework yet - EL and LT left. Wtf I'm so stressed up now. And I'm actually not sick and all. But now, I'm not so sure. My voice is breaking again, my head hurts again. Man, I think it's because of all the cryings again.

How funny, I tell people not to slash but I myself is doing it/wanting to do it.

I need you. Where are you.