Make Love,

Hey guys, it's the first day since CT2 is over and hah, the results are up and down for me, i'm such a dumbass, a failure yeah. It's always been like that for me, "like humps on the road yeah", yeah. :\ Haha it's alright; but I really want to make a change for an instance you know. Ohwells.

Reached school, yay we finally met :> you were in front of me, haha I always love our eye contacts and we know just what each of us mean. loveya.

Chatted with QiuMin once I sat down at the usual spot in the canteen with the girls. Haha Bigbang, etc. Love chatting with a fangirl for BB like her.

Oooohz, Cheryl and I didnt go crazy at the quandrangle this morning haha but we did in class yay! Okie dokies, first lesson, continuing with corrections for my bloody chinese test paper. And then JY was not feeling well, (gosh i hope she will be fine), so I accompanied her to the toilet (several times in total for the day) - she vomited, had diarrhoea and her nose bled.. Hope she will be fine k BBean!

Maths, didn't really catch what MrImran was saying one bit because I was never listening - reading Geronimo Stilton book from Christabelle since last period of MT haha I'm a bad girl yeah muhahha. Well yeah cause I didn't know what to do, so I read.

Recess, wafflesss but it's plain today, cause I saw Xena eating the plain one and it looks tasty already. Nomnom, saw Parit HAHA but no eyebrows today saded ): Okay, back class with Cheryl papa, then 1E for Sharlene, then 1F a lil while. Hah stupid toy gun. BANG

English was total bored like goddamn so boring. And yeah went toilet with JY again. Oh and we had this.... 'oral'-like practice I have no idea what's it called haha lameosh me blahhhhz.

From science onwards, fucktard so boring okayyyy! And my science was not really good but I'm okay with it already, as long as I passed, I'm contented because it's tough - and as you know, I'm bad at phrasing my answers whenever it comes to science [well if you know me long or well enough hehe]

Cheer Up Cheryl Papa Luv.

Geography, man I'm really satisfied with it, but I know, people still get higher than me. But heck care la haha, I'm happy with it already. 3 more marks to meet with Georgia - highest marks, again, as usual, totally expected.

Cheer Up Cheryl Papa Luv.

LT, Miss Phua wasn't in class so this big male teacher came in as a relief teacher hoho. Spent like 20 minutes writing something (below). And started with my math homeworks cause I'm sure not to have ample time to complete them at home. Cheryl's smiling more then. yay ;)

This is what I'd written during that 20 minutes,

I feel so useless and pathetic now, once again. I feel I couldn't cheer her up. I know I cannot even say "cheer up", "smile", "look on the bright side", "it'll be ok" or "there's always a second chance" because they are oh-so standard and pointless now, haha. All I can do is just sit there and watch her feeling sad, tearing. Yeah it kills me alot inside because I can do nothing but to remain silent; Perhaps my prescence (somehow) is already enough for her.

Seeing perople successfully making her smile, geez, I can't even do that. How dumb, what a dumbass I am, what failure yeah. And gee, I can't even do that. All I can do is stand by her side or sit at a comfortable distance from her, watching her, just like a guardian angel. Because when she needs me, I'll be there. I know it's all best not to tell her all these because it'll only make her think more, and that's not what I want - I want her to be happy and think lesser. :)

All I can afford is giving her a comforting smile, hoping she gets it.

I'm writing all these down because I think I need to say it out. But don't think wrong, I just want her to feel alright, because that's what she should feel afterall. I am 'sad' because she is too. Haha but I understand the fact that I should be hyper, to hype her up again. Ohwellz.

I hope she will be okay, okay? ;) See ya tomorrow love.