Didn't Know How Much I Miss You Until You Were Gone,

Wtf emoness and many sad events hit me.

For two important people in my life,

And you didn't know. Your words are so innocent. Your innocence hurts me; but that's okay. Because I know you didnt know or notice. See how vague my troubles are.

It's alright, it's okay.

My emocon for all these is simply );

You didn't know. It's alright.

You are so fucking innocent. Though cute, it's hurtful to me too. I miss you.

Even a 'Lol' or even worse, a '-.-', pains me alot. I love you.

Can't you see that I need you the most right now.

When I'm feeling down, i hope someone - you - would hug me and say "I know you're not."

:(

Cheryl, I really hate your mother for this. No offence to her but you know what I mean. Se made me distant our close frindship. Fuck, tears welled up in my eyes right now. I'm gonna be strong. It's a tough battle with the tears. But cheer up my hubby, we're here for you. I'm here for you. I will miss you a hella lot you better make sure of that. Cause if you don't know, I would run to your house at midnight and knock on your door just to tell you that. Without you, I really don't know what I would do when I'm down.

Fuck, now I can't see anything cause te tears made everything so blurry.

Girl, cheer up.

God I feel so dumb telling you to smile when I'm not.

:)

There, now smile girl.

Without you, I will not be as hyper as now.

Without you, I will not be the usual mama anymore.

Without you, I will not have someone to have a girl-to-girl talk.

Without you, I don't know who to pass our lovely Elmo chatbook to.

Without you, ...

Sorry, my tears are blinding my vision so much that it hurts. But I know you would cry even more.

No worries, my shoulder is always open for you. Whenever or wherever you are, give me a call. I'll be right here, if you ever need me; like how I needed you.

God damn, I don't know what to say now.

And girl, maybe I'm too jealous of you because I love you too much.

And girl, perhaps I should be very selfish now for not wanting you to go and leave my side, because I love you too much.

Your innocence is cute. Ouch, hurt. I need you right now. I know you're kind. I know you are. And I trust you. Dear, let me say this once more, I TRUST YOU.

I love you. I miss you. I need you.

These few days without seeing you burns my energy level because I've wasted energy wondering about you. Wait no, never have I 'wasted' them. I used them to cherish you.

Nevermind me.

Like I told you last year,

"Faking a smile it painful. Faking a laugh is even worse."

I'm invicible, bye.