Why? Tell Me Why,

Kay this is gonna be a long post - but I've
paragraphed it so it won't look super wordy - dedicated to my friend like
you.

I've never wanted to talk to you [indirectly/directly] like this, in this inappropriate manner. Why do you want to push me t this level where I hav to use the fucking vulgarities at a friend like you?

It definitely pissed us both with idiotic matters. Yes friends do fight and quarrel but why do we have to do it like almost every month? What's the problem here? Money? Fame? What is IT?


Tell me. Don't keep it to yourself. Tell me. Just tell me. Be sefish and just simply tell me. Come up to my blog (here) or facebook or msn or twitter or just almst anything and TELL ME. Spill our emotions out. Spill them ALL out. Don't bottle them up to yourself. Cuz only by shouting and scolding me all ou want can make you feel a whole lot better.

Do whatever you can/must to be the old you agn and just calm down. And give US chance to start afresh.


Promise we'll never fight over trivia again. I bet you do miss the old good buddies/sisters days. I bet you do. Youmight say/think "Eew, with her? Such a bitch? Hell no!! -.-" but I know thats just out of anger. I know deep down inside your honest heart, right underneath all these hatred, jealousy and anger, you do miss them alittle. Who cares if it's just 0.000000000000000000001% ; you still missed it.

And I miss you too. So why this? Why? I hate this; I really realy freaking hellin do. I really have NO thoughts or minds to boast or flunt my so called 'wealth'. I dare to swear --> If I really did thin that way, I'll be struck my lots of lightnings.

See, I do dare to swear. Because I'm not scared of my conscience.


People have been telling me and advising me to ignore and just erase or delete you from my memories once and for all. At certain crucial points, I really want to. But I JUST CAN'T. I CAN'T.

Because you know I missed you. So very much. I really want us to be bffs and good buddies and yeah live forever happily. You know I loved the moments we spent laughing, joking, walking, chatting etc tgt. Okay if you don't know this, I'm tellin you, I do.


I'm sick and tired of all these stupid fights and fucking hatred, jealousy and anger. Aren't you too? So please, can we just erase and delete them ALL OUT OF OUR MINDS???

I'm not telling you all these cuz I'm scared or being a coward or a bitch as you say. I just want us back.

Scold me, draw and tease me, shout at me, hit me, slap me, beat me, draw/doodle a doodoo doll and curse me. I dont care i thats what make you feel better. I gave up to trying to get close to you and befriend w you again.

I tried using many ways to try to near you just so we can talk this matter out and make things better. We're alrd secondary ones, not primary school kids, let's do it the matured way can we?

I spent my rest and night writing this. But I knew you wouldnt care and give a damn. Idc either, I just want to be the old-good-us again.

Where are you now...?